Everything that's Real

Milano

2010-09-03T21:00:00.000-07:00

My shoes n outfit for e day out shopping!!

In Milano

(can u believe it, i'm in italy n eating freaking chinese food??!!)
gimme my pasta - anytime!!

honestly, i dun like eating chinese food in italy.. coz it's super salty n it doesn't taste as gd.. moreover, i was going to be there for only like 4 days.. but whatever, i've already eaten it..

While waiting for e food to b served, I decided to camwhore with my fav camera.. it's not mine though..

Me
(it was taken in e auto mode, no touch ups or anything..)

Taken in vivid mood

So bored n tired, tt i kept fiddling with e cam..

And this is in a special mood (i'm not telling what it is).. n i LUV it..

my bag for e day (in 2 colours)

e hotel tt i'm staying (it's got lovely beds)

camwhoring at e hotel reception

n in e lift again..

N den it's off to bed..

Zzzzzzzzzzz

The tiny beam of Light

2010-08-22T05:12:00.000-07:00

someone once told me this..

In life, u got to meet e wrong ppl b4 u know u meet e right one.. things happen for a reason..

In a way, I think its true.. alot of things hv been pre-planned.. alot of experiences for u to go thru b4 u toughen up n grow wiser.. each day i learn something (i hope) to make myself smarter n to make myself wiser..

I've met many ppl in my life. some left a HUGE impression n still surround my life while e others just linger for a moment n off they go..

i mayb forgetful nowadays n forget things, but i realli appreciate how bb has moulded my life n now it surrounds him.. tt's all i need. for him to be there when i come home everyday.. esp after a rough day, he comes round to pick me up.. n i can unload my unhappiness n tiredness n den i'll b fine..

I'm thankful to him, for letting me into his life and allowing us to grow tog..

Thank you,
My love

For being there whenever i need u..

e irony

2010-08-19T20:56:00.000-07:00

e core of e prob is drinks..

i seriously think i shld stop drinking..

Alone

2010-07-07T08:00:00.000-07:00

nobody knows and no one understands..

perhaps alot of ppl would not understand.. i dun need anyone to understand.. i put myself in this kinda trouble.. i need to go thru this kinda shit.. n i blame no one..

no one understands...
n i mean no one..

2010-06-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when I leave singapore for too long.. and esp when i lock myself in e rm for too long.. Many thoughts run thru my mind..

Somehow I think they r not exactly pleasant.. Perhaps in a way, its what my subconscious is thinking abt.. in reality, i hate to face up to these problems tt i have.. its easier to run away fr them.. though it doesnt solve e problems, it temporarily soothes my mind..

honestly, i hate it when i choose to be a coward and duck all e problems..
i feel like a small child, covering her ears so she wouldn't hear tt she doesnt wanna hear...
covering her small eyes pretending not to see..
in a way, it's tearing her up inside.. but she cannot show it.. she needs to be strong..
perhaps tt's y sometimes its easier to be e 'bad' person. n mayb they will give up on her.. perhaps its a easier way to get out of e situation..

e dreams i have feel like what i see in reality.. its comes back n haunts me when i let my guards down.. each time i shut my eyes tighter n pray tt e next dream will b a beautiful dream.. something sweet tt can take me away fr reality (even if its just for a few hours)

nobody knows e hurt tt she feels inside. nobody understands..

It's easy to judge someone..

but it's not easy to understand someone..

Decisions..

2010-05-23T10:16:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i feel when we r u in a zone tt so familiar, so comfortable tt u dun wanna leave..

I've been thinking for quite a while.. i feel as if i'm in a dilemma.. shld i stay or shld i just leave.. is e grass greener outside? I wonder...

How it is so easy to fall in this area whereby u know u can survive (enough for u to keep a job).. But of coz which job wun make u complain?? even a little?? its common for ppl to stay in this comfort zone tt doesnt render any more "IQ" or more effort??

Its easy to see time fly with each outstation "assignment" tt u have scheduled.. how gd it is to see tt with e kinda fun u hv each day n yet see yr bank acc adjust itself at e time each month?

These days i think to myself.. will i be able to do it? tear myself away fr this lifestyle n den adapt myself to something tt is more mandant n routined??

I know i made a promise.. I intend to keep it for e sake of our happiness. i know it will be gd for me... eventually.. young as can be, i cannot be selfish n playful anymore..

soon.. e time will come, when all of this is over.. i know i will miss e days.. whereby i can just lie in bed n do nothing.. n yet i know tt i still hv e ability to feed myself..

right now, i cherish each time when i get to stay in a nice hotel whose bed is not mine..
bcoz..
perhaps..
this might b e last time i ever get to lie in it..

Bitten by e travelling bug..

2010-05-22T03:29:00.001-07:00

I've got this sudden urge to go travel around e world.. so many places tt i wanna go b4 i grow old..

somehow i feel tt sometimes we r bounded by this restriction of e society. i.e. u shld get a job after graduation, hv a stable income to support yrself.. its as if there's this invisible rule tt we restrict ourselves to.. perhaps its e pressure of yr parents, elders, peers and even e next generation..

but regardless, there's a list of places i wish to visit b4 i dun hv e ability to:
1. France ( Paris, Champagne, Nice, Cannes)
2. Italy (Rome, Tuscany, Milan, Florence, Venice)
3. Czech Republic (Prague)
4. Spain (Barcelona, Madrid, Ibiza)
5. Greece (Athens, Mikonos, Santorini)
6. North America (New York, LA, San Francisco, Washington, Mexico)
7. South America (Argentina, Brazil)
8. Maldives
9. Japan (Hokkaido, Kyoto, Osaka)
10. Phillippines (Cebu, Bohol, Palawan, Puerto Princessa)
11. Thailand (Krabi, Phuket, Koh Samui, Bangkok)
12. India (New Delhi - just to see Taj Mahal)
13. Indonesia (Lombok)
14. Papua New Guinea
15. Fiji Islands
16. New Zealand

I think with time, e list will continue to grow.. but hopefully e cities in bold would grow too!!

Belated Bday celebration

2010-05-09T06:29:00.000-07:00

Cookies n cream ice-cream cake from Swensens

(celebrating my bday @ Victoria peak @ 313 Somerset.)

My beloved pri sch frenz who brought me oiut for dinner.

Dinner was fantastic. Realli looooong time since we had dinner tog, as all of us r either bz with work or sch.. Appreciate tt they all made an effort to gather for my bday.

Thanks!

Bored in johannesburg..

2010-05-06T21:50:00.000-07:00

Just uploaded this into my laptop.. camwhoring in boring joberg.

E world is changing..

2010-04-23T19:00:00.000-07:00

I feel tht e world is becoming more unhumane and unforgiving..

This afternoon I went to e clinic to get a blood test, numbing my left arm.. not exactly feeling fantastic. went for yoga and den bought a putting mat for my dad. its was peak hour rush as i was trying to walk to e bus-stop to take a bus home (pls dun ask me y i'm taking a bus n not driving!!)

I was minding my own business, with my hp in my left hand trying to msg bb abt dinner n den my right hand was preoccupied with my shopping bag (present for dad) and my own big handbag.. this couple was walking down e str towards me, i looked up and saw tt there was a small gap btw them tt i could walk thru, therefore i continued with my msging n walking at e same time.. But then, e stupid idiotic man just decided to ramp into my left shoulder (Ouch!!). I seriously believe tt it was on purpose and he had e cheek to scold "c*** b**"?!!!

Intially, i wanted to turn back n give him my piece of mind.. then i tot of what my yoga teacher just preached in her class.. (to turn negative tots into positive ones) i just walked on, rubbing my sore left shoulder.. but honestly.. i realli just wanted to wish tt he got a dislocated shoulder from banging into me while walking.. bcoz.. i think e pain lingered for quite a few moments..

so old man.. for yr info, i did wear my glasses out.. just tt i choose to ignore u this time.. n e next time i'll still ignore u... (tt's for e vuglarities tt u used on me)

i cant help feeling.. if singaporeans (or e world) has become an unfriendly, unhumane n unforgiving.. for these little things in life..

perhaps, its technology tt has brought us apart.. we rather face e monitor den talk to a human being.. n sometimes i'm one of e culprits..

Love - A bitter-sweet Addiction

2010-04-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

Love is a bitter-sweet addiction.

Recently, I've put this little phrase tog with my nick on msn.
and one of my frenz asked me,

"Why is love a bitter-sweet addiction?"

Simply bcoz when 2 ppl have an argument, the feeling in yr heart is a bitter sensation. something tt may or may not have been necessary but either or both party would have felt negatively. For myself, I simply do not enjoy arguments. coz it irritates me greatly n affects my day/work.
I find it annoying practically unavoidable and yes, bitter.

But think abt it, after u get over e argument or make peace with each other. most of e times, e disagreements occur bcoz of e luv for each other? n once u go pass this barrier, e relationship is strengthened n e bond is closer. n when u can actually see this point, yes, love is sweet.

To me, love is a v impt factor in my life. it shapes u as a person n makes u grow with each day.
Therefore to me, its like an addiction, a positive addiction.

Though it is a bitter-sweet addiction, I'm willing to go thru it coz to me, c'est la vie (this is life).

Langkawi Trip!!

2010-04-03T20:55:00.000-07:00

Right now in the airport.. awaiting my trip to go to LANGKAWI!!!

Yippie.. 3 days in e resort.. going to take a gd break...

Being Forced..

2010-02-09T07:25:00.000-08:00

y m i being forced to accept things that i dun wanna??

for e longest time i've avoided having to clash face-to-face, but just becoz e festive season is coming, i've to face it?? y? i realli dun wan to... i wanna get out of this situation..

I wanna make mum happy. but i cannot accept e fact.. n i hate e fact tt there's alot of things going on behind my back.. i realli hate that..

Las Vegas

2010-01-29T20:20:00.000-08:00

Road Trip to Las Vegas..

*p/s: e champagne is not ours. just e leftover fr e guests who have already left e show..
*cheap thrill* keke

Another Chapter of my Life

2010-01-01T17:12:00.000-08:00

A very late post of my solemnisation.

One of e most impt chapter in my life. I had a great time. Sorry for e frenz tt couldnt make it to my soleminsation.

16 Oct 2009

Soleminsation of ShiXiang & Casey

@ Four Season Hotel

Me in e lift, on e way up to our rm. (our rm is on e topmost 20th floor)

Menu for e day

Our soleminsation table nicely decorated in champagne gold with maria pink flowers.

Mingling with guests.

Our wedding bands (From Love & co.)

Us

U may kiss e bride!

Our Family

Our Frenz

Lunch was wonderfully delicious. I must say Four Seasons did a great job and I'm impressed by their service. (coz at one point I wanted to personally serve drinks to my uncle and aunt, the waitress politely refuse to let me carry the glasses. instead she held e drinks in her serving tray and followed behind me and only passed me the drinks when i reach e table where my uncle and aunt was sitting.) That's e difference btw a 3-star and a 5 star hotel! I'm all thumbs-up for the overall food and service!

And one funny thing actually happened when we were leaving e hotel.

E same waitress who helped me with e drinks earlier stood near e door as we were exiting,

she called out:" Mrs Lim..."

No reponse from me.

"Mrs Lim.."

No reponse from me.

Den she kinda stood in my sight and called again," Mrs Lim..."

I turned my head and looked at her with e are-u-calling-me look. Den I realiesd she was actually calling me!! omg.. it was so funny... At that point i couldnt even associate myself with Mrs...

And finally 2 more photos.

I never tot my dream would come true. Bb has been e kindest person tt i have ever met other den my family. He listened quietly and actually fulfilled my dream.

Thank you my love.

Thank you for letting me into yr life.

And now, the path is ours to take together forever..

P/S: I love you.

i need to run away

2009-06-27T16:23:00.000-07:00

so many things have happened this entire month...

from my family to quarrels with bb..
i'm v thankful that bb helped me thru all these..
this time realli.. without him, i dunno what will become of me..
i know till now i refuse to face e truth, n i dun think i have e courage to in e near future..
i' m trying to concentrate on e good of my life.
trying to focus on things that can make me feel better now..

i dun wanna fall into depression.. i dun wanna fall into this pit that no one is able to pull me out of it..
much as i wanna to get away from all this harsh reality.. i can only run so far..
my dear frenz.. pls forgive me if i choose to be alone for a little while..
i hope u will understand that this is a difficult time for me..
nv have i felt so alone n so misunderstood..

i dun think anyone can put themselves in my shoes.. perhaps i just choose to be difficult..
let me just run away for a little while more.. give me some more time to put myself tog b4 i can face e world again..

i need to hide behind a mask n take things from another perspective 1st..
until then...
give me a little room..

i know i can do this..

if u will see this..

2009-05-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

e feeling keeps returning..
every time i felt that it was a slap on my face..
n each time it feels harder n harder..
it hurts more n more..

i told u it doesnt hurt anymore.
i realli tot so..
but each time i hear things..
n every word felt like a thorn..

thank u for taking care of me
all this is coming to an end..
we've both got e answer..
all for e perfect ending..

new love..

2009-04-20T19:42:00.000-07:00

new baby in e family..

this time its black with a 4-wheel drive..

luvs...

too bad i cant find e photo anywhere..
will upload it once i get it..

haha...

away from home..

2008-12-03T14:20:00.000-08:00

been in pakistan for e past few days.. didnt do much except eat n slp n watch online shows..
boredom to e max.. haha. unlike in sin there's so much more to do.. but fortunately this hotel is comfy.. except for e food.. dun think i'm used to it..

cant wait to get back home.. can see bb rather than e 4 walls here..

Is it me?

2008-11-12T19:40:00.000-08:00

somehow again, i feel that things have changed.. i'm starting to feel e distance btw us. its as if u r pulling away from me.. many many hidden secrets that i cannot know of.. or have u changed? i dunno.. i've asked what i shld ask but i dun seem to get an ans.. sigh..

u just pray that its me that thinking too much..

爱多少早知道

2008-11-07T00:10:00.000-08:00

One of my fav songs..

爱多少早知道

我的头发已全部剪掉　
你指定的发型我现在不想要　
我再也不会抱着你聊　
聊那些以前以为有的未来　
对你说的话　
现在想起来多可笑　
请你别太计较

早知道我会爱得受不了　
就该随身带着一把剪刀　
把所有我不爱的画面都去掉　
是否我会更好

早知道认识你像玩高空弹跳　
拉扯你我爱的距离忽大忽小　
也许认识我的时候你就知道　
你对我的爱有多少

It's been long..

2008-11-07T00:00:00.000-08:00

been feeling quite sick for e past few days.. must b my gastric flu acting up again.. shld have seen e doctor just now.. said this so many times already.. but still..

dun feel at all gd today.. thank god i've got e gals to meet for lunch.. shldnt have eaten curry since i'm not well.. but wth.. dunno what's wrong with baby.. so abrupt n impatient recently... so many things that i cant do for him n i dunno how to help him...

sometimes i think its so difficult.. so difficult to live with someone n get accustomed to his living habits n requests n everything.. think he's more n more like his dad. i dunno what to do..

n e ans is not that simple..

My gfs

2008-11-06T18:28:00.000-08:00

One of the little recent gatherings

Me, Lil and Eil

Arh... Finally Sandy is on leave and back to Sin for her 3 weeks holiday.. its been ages since i've seen her... N everyone decided to go sing k.. been ages since i've went k-ing..

Me. Eil. Lil. Sandy. Ryan

Photo taken in btw songs..

Long time since e 5 of us met up... i missed those days...

Those days whereby we meet everyday till we can get sick of it...

Me.Eil. Lil. Sandy

As usual 4 of us cam-whoring without Ryan. hah...

Those were e days.. can u imagine most of my poly photos were of 4 or 5 ppl.. think my mum almost tot there were only 5 of us in e entire class!!

So belated Birthday..

2008-11-06T18:16:00.000-08:00

Actually these photos r realli old... Just wanted to post them up...

Thanks for all e effort to put this little impromptu party.. appreciate it..

Birthday boy n gal in RED!!!

My colleague who celebrated his birthday 3 days b4 mine!
N e cake was bought by him!! So sweet...

All's well

2008-09-18T00:39:00.001-07:00

After so many days, finally i've got gd news..

I'm feeling better, if not great! no longer r there raindrops.. only happy tots.. only things that would make me smile n the ppl around me smile..

N there is so many ppl who helped me along e way..

I appreciate u guys.. :)

Raindrops keep falling

2008-09-13T01:30:00.000-07:00

Normally when i'm on e cab home fr e airport, i'd fall aslp in my seat.. This morning i couldnt..

I looked out of e window as i passed e familiar ecp.. the clouds were so grey, so dark.. suddenly, i could see raindrops falling onto e winscreen.. from the tiniest water drop to e point whereby i couldnt differentiate e water droplets anymore.. i couldnt even see e car in front of me.

Den it dawned on me.. this is what i'm feeling right now.. my tears wanna fall, but they just cant.. not anymore.. mayb i'm just too tired.. i could feel e pain that have pierced thru, but my tears just wun flow.. but i guess this is also a gd thing. i've had enough of puffy eyelids, edematous conjunctiva, overactive lacrimal glands.. n perhaps someone out there knows e pain n e sky is crying for me..

i've gotten myself in all this nonsense.. i put myself in such a situation n i think i dun deserve anything gd anymore.. too many mistakes, i cant forgive myself.. this is e pain that nothing or nobody can feel or take away from me..

For all e mistakes i've made, i know i cannot erase e hurt i've caused..

Regret is an understatment..

For all e boyfriends in e world

2008-09-04T23:59:00.000-07:00

Think this will make her love u even more.. coz i'd

When she stares at your mouth
[ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she thinks shes stronger than you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]

When she starts cursing at you tryin to act all tuff
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]

When she ignores you
[ Give her your attention ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]

When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared
[ Protect her ]

When she steals your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she doesn't answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you
[SHE REALLY DOES MORE THAN YOU COULD UNDERSTAND!!!]

When she bumps into you;
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]

When she says it's over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she reposts this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid.

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

Exclusive Love

2008-07-11T05:12:00.000-07:00

Do you believe in exclusive love? I always think that everyone would just love that ONE person totally at one time and only THAT someone. Perhaps things changed, or maybe its just human who are fickle have changed. Although I haven’t seen the world, I think I have seen quite a fair bit. From singles, couples, divorcees and even married ones. Half of them have had an “affair”.
So what is exclusive love?

Is it telling your special someone the evergreen phrase “Darling, I love you?” and yet behind your partner you are found in the arms of another? Obviously not, some would say.
Or is it just sticking to that particular partner forever regardless of whatsoever? Maybe, some would agree.

As for me, I see things from both sides. Perhaps one might be more biased but still..
I think love is selfish, that’s why so many people are not willing to let go of what they have at the moment in pursuit of what might or might not be better for them. Just because the future is a big unknown. Simply because they forget what is “exclusive love”.

Human get lost, I’m human too. I can’t remember how many times I’ve found myself almost drowning. Thankfully, I have friends who would pull me back to shore.
And still there’s this special person who is always there waiting for me. Regardless of the mistakes I have made, the joyous moments that we share, he’s always there for me.

He’s my exclusive love.

p/s: Baby, you are the one.

For my buddy in Mel~

2008-05-16T21:19:00.000-07:00

There's so much that i wanna update u abt.. but i guess everyone is so busy with so much stuff.. i'm so up to my neck with packed flights n u preoccupied with sch n everything.. haven realli talked to u for such a long long time..

at times i'll wish for a mel flight so i can catch up with u over coffee face to face.. it seems so close but yet so far.. i always wish for e same thing over n over again.. for my frenz to be happy n i realli hope that the wish will be granted, for u..

u asked me this morning, how can things like that happen?? i realli realli cant give u an ans, although i made e same mistake.. perhaps things happen for a reason, n at e moment e reason that i can only think that e incident will make u grow stronger.. u probably think that its easy for me to say, your heart is probably breaking if not broken.. but if u didnt feel any of these den u probably didnt put in any effort in e beginning at all..

if u ask me, i'd tell u at times its easier to not ask why? coz to me this kinda truth sucks... n what's e point of finding out e answer..
u'll probably tell me, " suyin, why do u wanna live in this kinda 'real' world that u dunno anything?"
coz in my heart there's this saying -- what u dunno, wun hurt u --

but at e end of the day, i know u will grow stronger... u will overcome all these.. den when u look back it at, u will tell me n luff abt it..

That's you`

2007-06-09T12:56:00.000-07:00

There's so much indescribable feelings
that i can nv imagine..
I wouldnt have known what to do
if i didnt have you..

What will life be without u
that i dun wanna know..
I know i had everything
when i hold u..

I luv it when u hold me in ya arms
that peck on my forehead..
I wan u to know
that means the world to me..

The feeling of being away from home
that is getting more n more difficult..
But I know u will be here
With that I know I can bear with it all...

so many trips~

2007-05-28T14:10:00.000-07:00

been going around so much that i haven been home for what seems like a long long time... i think my mum misses me so much n yet at times i feel there's only so much time i can spend at home.. i'm always around when she's at work and when she's done with work i'm out of the house.. i think it's been ages since i smelled my own bed.. i think i talk to my mum more on the phone den i see her in person.. perhaps only 2 hrs in a week...

sometimes i hate long flight... coz i wun be around in sin... not that i'm afraid if he'll go out with some other gals but more like missing seeing him... i nv thought that i miss home... not until i did fra-jkf... that week was a long one... but i'm thankful that jess was on my flight... but still i enjoyed jkf.. so many things to do and so little time.. i didnt even take any photos on my cam... wth... i forgot to bring it out...

i'm doing another long flight on wed... think i might miss home too... 10 days without smelling my bedsheet... argh.... wun be able to smell bb's bed too... but there's a good thing.. i dun need to pick up after leaving my stuff around... lolx... i hate picking up after myself.. that's what bb always say... i leave things around and always in a mess.. so the person who always pick things up for me is him! heh! u r stuck now baby..

just came back from kl yest... was stuck at the custom for 30 mins. cant take it... stupid cars have to follow my pattern... i was thinking i was leaving m'sia at an unholy hour and yet there's so many cars doing so too... wth... waste my time n petrol... fortunately i wasnt behind the wheel for the 3 hrs drive... lolx.. poor fella... suffering at my refusal to drive on m'sia highway... let's wait for another trip next month.. i cant wait...

It's U!

2007-05-05T14:31:00.000-07:00

It's u that i luv
The one that i wanna spend the rest of my life with..
U hate it when i share this...
But i think the whole world to knows..

U mean so much to me,
But yet there's so little that i've done..
Ya sacrifices are endless..
There's nothing that i wan more..

I think its a great gift..
The best gift that any1 have given me..

N that's U,
you r the present and future..

Trouble~

2007-05-02T10:12:00.000-07:00

I dunno why it has to happen to me... it sucks... sometimes it takes mistakes to wake u up... this isnt sch whereby u can just use liquid paper n erase the mistake... this is when ya job is at stake... the feeling sucks... i just hope that things arent that serious as i think it is... sigh... that's abt all that i can describe now...

i'm praying for hope n leniency...

sevice recovery

2007-04-19T15:48:00.000-07:00

time to do service recovery... its now or never..

wish me luck every1...

Name Personality

2007-04-19T14:14:00.000-07:00

I think some of it is true... at least for me

A: Likes to flirt.
B: Likes to talk.
C: Really likes to chill.
D: Has one of the best personalities ever.
E: Good Kisser
F: People adore you.
G: Never let people tell you what to do.
H: Has a very good personality and looks.
I: Is always there for friends
J: Lives life for fun.
K: Really silly.
L: Loved by everyone
M: makes dating fun
N: Dead sexy
O: Best in relationships
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite.
R: Freakin crazy
S: Easy to fall in love with.
T: a sweet heart.
U: Really wild and crazy.
V: Not judgemental.
W: Very broad minded.
X: Never let people tell you what to do
Y: One of the best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
Z: Always ready

S: Easy to fall in love with.
U: Really wild and crazy.
Y: One of the best bf/gf anyone could ask for.
I: Is always there for friends
N: Dead sexy

i guess the above was what my mum n dad wanted me to be..

get a good bf and lead a good life,
meanwhile still be abit wild n crazy,
be there for my bf,
n not to forget my frenz,
n most imptly stay hot! hah!

but somehow i chose my own english name, thus changing my fate... lolx...

C: Really likes to chill.
A: Likes to flirt.
S: Easy to fall in love with.
E: Good Kisser
Y: One of the best bf/gf anyone could ask for.

as to which one is true or untrue, that's for u to find out!

now its time to search for ya own... or even ya partner's

Things on my mind~

2007-04-11T14:31:00.000-07:00

this is the 3rd time that i'm feeling it... there's so much that i cant do n also so much that i can do...
sometimes i tell myself not to get tired of all this... think abt the big pic... but at times when i look at the big pic, i get scared.. i'm not realli ready to grow up yet.. i wish i could hide sometimes..

sometimes i feel as if i'm an ostrich...

i wanna hide but i keep putting my head into the sand without thinking that my body needs to be hiden too... that's a stupid way of doing things.. everytime when i meet with a prob i wann hide... i just wanna do somethingelse to get rid of the wrong n empty feeling within me.. but yet, i'm forced to face reality... that's how cruel life can be at times..

b-day

2007-04-05T09:30:00.000-07:00

i have the top item on my wishlist n that's without that some1 having to even look at it!! haha... i've got the pink version! yippie... now i can listen to songs while on the bus to the hotel... yeah... i cant say how much i luv it...

n thanks to every1 who sms-ed me, emailed me, wished me in person perhaps i take alot of time to reply ya msg n everything pls pardon me... coz i just came back to sin late last night... thanks every1!!

*i'm a happy gal..

Cape Town (II)

2007-03-31T15:00:00.000-07:00

just back from cape town... almost fainted onboard... scare the hell out of myself... nv felt so much coldness coming out from myself... i was so wishing for some1 to hold my hand n say everything's going to be okay...

Ocean Basket aka the original 'Fish & Co'

the view from the restaurant... can u believe it?

my chococino~

view from the cable car

the little hut behind serves breakfast... sounds cool right eating on top of the table mountains...

i dunno what on earth is that fella doing at such great heights, but i'm kinda worried for him...

i could stay there for the entire morning n not get sick of the view...

i wonder why is the little girl pouting at such a beautiful place...

let me teach every1 something new today...
at least i didnt know it till i went cape town...
1. grey feathers on an ostrich is a female
2. black feathers are male
3. when the feet of a male turns red, it means that he is ready to mate, in simple -- horny...

therefore the ppl who work in the farm will put the male an female tog...

Cape Town (IV)

2007-03-31T14:40:00.000-07:00

Can u imagine how strong the winds are at cape point? just look at our hair? i'm just thankful that i dun need to comb my hair anymore after my perm... lolx... i can almost 'swear' that i could have been blown off by the wind anytime if i didnt grab hold onto anything while being up there...

seriously i have nv seen anything that beautiful b4...

look how sweet the baboon is... picking lice for the male...

the cute little baboon.. the baby that was trying to be close to the adult female baboon..

This is the result of having strong winds blowing all day -- slanted trees...

Boulders Beach -- where all the penguins are

If u think that's the only one on the boulder.....

... look again

u can see table mountain from almost every view...

the white building is cape town's jail....

one last shot b4 we left...

Cape Town (III)

2007-03-31T14:30:00.000-07:00

taking a boat to the seal 'island'

look @ the number of seals... thousands of them on the 'island'

post card pic~

the whole bunch of us... u can tell its either the tour guide dun like that fella or her photography skills are plain lousy...

@ Cape of Good Hope

the young ones~

cute little creature~ i cant remember the name though...

braving the winds...

i need a break

2007-03-27T18:30:00.000-07:00

something weird happened to me yest.. i've been getting irritated for the slightest thing recently.. be it something that some1 said at home, or some idiotic pax, i can whine non-stop... i think there's something wrong with me.. den yest it was the ultimate.. out of the blue, i just had tears pouring down my cheeks... at that point i just felt that everything n every1 had something against me.. i think the worst ppl who got it was bb n my mum... after i throw my anger n den i'll regret.. i wish i could be more tolerant n listen to others, but i get so persisent on certain things n i just cant stop n listen..

why? why have i changed so much to some1 who i dun even recgonise anymore? i think i miss me, i miss that some1 who will think of sweet thoughts for that special some1, that some1 who will sit down n listen to my mum's whinings n sort things out... i'm so sick of listening to problems now... i cant face my own family's problems.. i wanna run away... there's only so much i can do, there's only so much i can say.... i just wanna hide..

i need to rethink abt everything.. i'm just v glad that there are bb n close frenz with me to take me away from these 'nonsense' for the time being... i need a break... i'm so afraid of depression...

leaving for cape town to rejunvinate

It's the Time of the Yr again!

2007-03-22T11:14:00.000-07:00

My Wishlist For 2007

1. iPod Nano
2. Bobbi Brown brush set
3. Dual-time watch (for work)
4. Longchamp bag
5. Make-up case to carry my make-up around
6. 12 sessions of pamper-me facial
7. 12 sessions of mani n pedi
8. the new coach keychain
9. tiffany mesh ring with the 'heart'
10. laptop
11. that idiot to return me my $$$
12. last but not least, all my family n frenz to be happy n healthy!

stupidly stupid

2007-03-16T09:05:00.000-07:00

i did the most hilarious thing last night... i was out with bb for dinner n it was supposedly MY treat... den upon bringing the bill, i realised in my hurry to leave my house after showering, i DIDNT have my wallet with me... omg...

Bb' Day~

2007-03-15T23:29:00.000-07:00

bb waiting for his soup to arrive~

i'm busy entertaining him so he wun feel hungry~

b4 we knew it, it was time for DESSERT!!

not too sweet, to both of our liking...

this was after i got the band to serenade bb... hah~

not showing anymore... haha...

super lazy..

2007-03-11T21:08:00.000-07:00

i think i'm damn lazy... so busy with everything recently... suffering badly from a bad roster n JET-LAG (due to the bad roster)... wth, this month the furthest i'm going is sdyney... can u believe it? n for my birthday, i'll be coming back from yet another sdyney trip!!!

shall update later... going to meet bb now...

Pisa~

2007-03-02T09:05:00.000-08:00

Took 4.5 hours of train ride (one way) to appreciate this... omg.. i cant believe how i beared with it...

can u tell what it is?

if u cant? pls let me luff!

2007-02-16T22:00:00.000-08:00

its once again time for cny!! time to indulge in cookies n grow fat... i dun think i shall waste anymore time typing... time to indulge!!!

ang bao time~

2007-02-04T07:54:00.000-08:00

CNY is coming soon... yeah... time to collect some ang bao again!! (dun think i'm left with many yrs to collect, get what i mean? wink :P) just bought a plant from chinatown.. bb chose it.. quite small but super green.. tot it was quite cute to have something decorative for cny this yr, since i'm not spending much time @ home...

wonder how it is like without my dad this yr.. feels abit weird not seeing him for such a long time.. though we speak ocassionally via skype, wonder how is he coping with the cold over there..

Krabi

2007-01-30T19:30:00.000-08:00

took a short trip to krabi.. was a nice getaway from the cold cold temperature... one of the main purpose was to go diving... it has been more than a yr since i've dived n boy i was kinda worried...

we reached there mid-morning, went to one of the eateries for breakfast.. it was so-so but breakfast was nv great in thailand.. den we went canoeing to sight-see some of the caves @ krabi.. it was a refreshing trip as we were surrounded by water n mangroves.. not much signs of human beings.. too bad it was too warm in the early afternoon otherwise it would have been perfect.. after getting up we were treated to a plateful of seasonal fruit.. n den a plate containing of 4 oysters n 2 sets of cutlery was brought to our table.. den the 'japanese' lady who went canoeing with us kindly pushed the plate to the middle of the table n signaled for us to eat.. i picked one up wihtout hesitation.. after swallowing mine, i took the 2nd remaining oyster for bb.. after bb swallowed his mouthful, we saw the guy accompanying the 'japenese' lady taking out 100 baht to pay a yound lady.. den we realised that the plate of oysters might have been ordered by the 'japanese' lady n not catered for the canoeing package!! omg!! i think we ate her share of the oysters n we didnt pay for it... (only 4 pplp signed up for the canoeing trip) but since what done cannot be undone, we just acted blur the entire 30mins trip back to the resort.. lolx..

we planned for 2 day dives n 1 night dive - all in the same day.. as usual after the 1st dive when we got up for lunch i didnt have any appetite at all.. in fact i felt like throwing up after smelling the oil from the rice.. i had only 2 mouthfuls..

i'm quite surprised to see this... i didnt know one of my good frenz extended his business..

one of the caves that we went into while canoeing

up from diving... thanks goodness i didnt throw up..

make me pretty..

Sight-seeing in london

2007-01-17T21:26:00.000-08:00

dear all, i've braved the winds of london, n risked my life taking the photos, i can also swear the i almost got BLoWN away while walking london bridge!! thankfully i'm safe n sound back in sin to show u these photos...

cute little gals, the left one kept crying n crying that i wanted to pick her up, she stopped temporarily for me to take a photo of her

@ Big Ben

London Eye

real ice? look again... its just a fake ice-skating rink

Me on London Bridge overseeing Tower Bridge

Me @ tower bridge

insomia¬

2007-01-11T07:00:00.000-08:00

hey guys,

right now o'm here in london watching some fashion n music mtv while updating my blog!! (pls dun say "oh that gal is showing off again, telling the rest of the world that she's not in sin n can update her blog") i'm suffering from insomia, its 6.36am here in london and i have been up for about 3 hours already. i'm here using the hotel's com after watching silly tv program (that is similar to extreme make-over, just that it emphasises on mental "make-over" too, bet bestie would know the show that i'm talking abt -- make me perfect) its realli digusting having to look at the surgeon make incisions and continous flashing of the woman's breasts... imagine i was trying to eat my crisps at that moment.. omg.. i wanted desperately to throw up.. the reason that i'm watching that progamme is bcoz there's simply nothing else better to watch..

at the mean time there's this silly channel whereby there is an interactive gameshow wherebu viewers can call in to answer the game questions.. i have watched this b4 when i came the other time.. the questions were so tough.. apparently there are a few different type of games and the prize money starts from £500... i mean its like omg.. its S$1500!!! this time it was like having 9 letters jumbled up in a box of 3 by 3 and u r supposed to unscramble the word.. it was super easy!!! one of the reason is bcoz it is sorta in a sequence... i realli wanted to call in n win the money coz it was SUPER DAMN easy... but i didnt know how to call using my mobile n i was afraid that i wun be getting the prize monet coz i'm not a local.. n it will b wasting S$2.25 (not inclusive of international calling charges) den it moved on to the 2nd set of questions in exactly the same kinda format.. but the prize money was DOUBLED!!! £1000!!! n the answer was in the exact same sequence!!! omg.. imagine i lost £1500 within 30 mins!!

sigh... upon knowing that i lost the money, the only best thing is to get retail therapy!! it was time for the "pls-buy-me channel"... i saw this loose powder like make-up that seems like magic.. it covers up all ya flaws n everything.. comes in a set of 4 items costing £29.95... it was like omg, ya skin will look as if u dun have any make-up on!! i wanna buy.. but its only available when u call to order..

Paris!

2007-01-01T21:48:00.000-08:00

great trip... but costly... read on n u will know what i meant...

one of the most beautiful shops in paris... its so costly to enter this shop

along the streets (somewhere near la fayette)

me n my colleague on the way to the magnificant towers...

Effiel tower!! need i say more..

Pictures @ a mussels&fries restaurant... super sucky attitude claimed to have ran out of butter for our bread (bcoz we are asians?! wtf!!)

CDG~

2006-12-29T19:54:00.000-08:00

back from charles de gaulle... if u can recall which airport that is... hahaa... the french are just a weird batch of ppl... refusing to speak english when necessary... wth... but the good thing is that i learnt 2 words --

1. bonjour
2. "masi buku"

came back with SUPER dry hands and legs... wanted to die from itchiness... thankfully my face is spared.. its abt 0 degress to -2 degrees but i DIDNT see snow... kinda disappointed but i guess there will be other chances... shall update the photos soon.. coz i did something super stupid... i went with my cam that was left with 20mins of batt life.. omg... how to take photos... fortunately my colleague took some for me @ eiffel tower!! yeah... it was super magnificant n GOREGOUS!!! omg omg omg... i wanted to hug it so much... so beautiful... but it was realli colddddddddddddddd.... so cold that i wanted to just didnt want walk anymore.. but it was realli worth the while... :)

London~

2006-12-16T23:59:00.000-08:00

my trip to london... pretty short time still have plenty i wanna do but haven got the chance to.. like seeing harrods... argh... how could i miss that place?!! i shall try to go in jan... hahaha..

christmasy lights along oxford street...

this is outside one of the pubs @ oxford... i cant remb the name of the pub but i tot it was quite cool as a promotion practice... :)

the funfair @ oxford street... quite beautiful with all the lightings... feels abit like singapore except for the temp... it was freezing...

so many big stuffed toys as prizes... its so big that even if i won one of those i wun know how to carry it back to singapore...

wanted to eat duck rice at a eatery near this station but its a pity its too early n the duck was not roasted yet... ended eating kfc... n it cost 3 times of the one in singapore

*** i realised soemthing after i returned to singapore, its raining more often here than in london... weird***

after graduation

2006-12-10T21:30:00.000-08:00

finally the day has come... i've graduated and went on my 1st trip today... it was alright.. still v green abt alot of things.. need alot of help to get things right... thankfully the most scary thing didnt happen... phew...

it takes time to master... i'm trying to get the hand of things... hmmm... i think i can...

4 dec 2006

2006-12-04T20:59:00.000-08:00

so sick of seeing some things... its just so childish n superficial... what kinda attitude r u giving? another piece of shit...

time with the sun~

2006-11-28T19:21:00.000-08:00

this is me @ the beach in sentosa (singapore)

the view i've got with ppl blocking my way

this is gold coast... the beach with real sand...

i think the gal in black bikini is hot (the one looking into my camera)! i bumped into her a few times @ the surfer's paradise) too bad i couldnt take a better photo of her... (make do with it ya, guys?!)

finally, the gal who brought me there... thanks babe~

Pizza Bar~

2006-11-24T19:45:00.000-08:00

preparing to meet bb.. the shot just b4 i stepped out of my house..

bb waiting for his food to arrive... he doesnt look at all hungry...

the folded pizza with salami inside... yum yum...

the pizza with salmon on top... my fav @ pizza bar... down it with white wine... fabulous

me n my darling bb~

stupid gestures

2006-11-23T19:30:00.000-08:00

so much have been happening for the past few weeks.. i dunno where to start from.. its quite sick to think abt it at times... i crack under stress, i hate myself for not being able to control my own temper.. its so frustrating to think abt it.. i hate it when i can so easily let go of this thing called 'temper' and voomed -- tadah... perhaps its the mull attitude coming out... loudness doesnt ans the question, it just makes it worse.. i realli wonder if i can do it at times... where has all the patience gone?! perhaps the following route is for me to practice the art of patience.. sometimes i think the closer the relationship is the more u take the person for granted.. raising your voice, getting alittle impatient etc... i luv the ppl around me, bb, my family and frenz but i hate it when they do silly things -- like instructing me on WHAT to do at that specific point of time, coz i simply cant tolerate that, it will be like the ultimate (coz even my mum dun do that!!) for goodness sake, if we r good frenz, pls DUN tell me what i dun wanna know

Melbourne pics!

2006-11-18T21:41:00.000-08:00

the view from my low-rise room

the comfy beds, just that the pillows were alittle too low...

the comfy seat in my hotel room...

i dunno what building this is but i think its quite cool...

gorgeous church~

lunch @ melbourne!

a cuppa to match my delicious lunch!

i think the tram station is as cool as the mrt in singapore... exact timings...

the magical wagon that would bring me to wonderland... too bad i didnt have much money left to ride on it...

on the way to the airport already... bye melbourne~

Clean sheet of paper

2006-11-17T23:30:00.000-08:00

angie posted this on friendster's bulletin, just though of sharing this with all frenz that i know and do not know:

There was an email a few years back circulating around about relationship being like a piece of blank paper.

Both of you start with a clean sheet of paper and initially both of you will be happily writing a story on it. Over time, one may be tired and write less and the other party has to put in effort and fill in the space. Sometimes, it might be the other way round and one party have to compromise or give in or put more effort to ensure the words keep flowing. If either one party chooses to stop writing or chooses to write on another piece of paper, the story just can't go on. It's as simple as that.

One weakness of us gals is our tendency to be too analytical and "calculative". Eg, "I put in this much and much into this relationship, he should love me this much much.!"

And when the relationship ends, we'll be mourning and pondering over all our efforts and time spent on the guy, what we did wrong, why is she better than me and how can he leave me when i did so much and sacrifice so much for him!

Love is not an equation where a+b=c , or in love terms, what you put in should be matched by the amount he puts in as well.

Guys understand that and are more practical. When a relationship doesn't work out, they are able to let go and are just eager to find a replacement so that life will goes on as usual and they don't have to suffer the pangs of loneliness , still have a companion and a warm body in bed.

While girls will be burdened with the all the " Whys Whys whys" and deep analysis from the beginning of the relationship to end, and why and where it has gone wrong. We are not able to accept the reality that we placed our chips on the wrong bet and instead, waste more of our precious time analysing and mourning on a matter that is already a fact, which doesn't serve any purpose at all.

Haven't seen any cases of a guy turning back cos he's touched by the fact the gal he ditched is mourning and waiting for him. If he does turn back, most likely is the new gal ditched him or the pasture is just not as green as he thought it was, and he's just grazing back at your pasture till he finds what he thinks is a greener one. ( in that case, why do you need this kind of guy for?)

Learn to be more light hearted and with less expectation in love. If you are together with someone you love/like and the feeling is mutual, enjoy the relationship as it goes along. But don't put all your eggs in one basket and expect a lifelong of undying love and declaration.

Things change, people change. He and you will change as time goes along. If both of you are not changing in the same direction, both of you won't be on the same highway to the same destination.

Always love yourself and take good care of yourself.

If you don't even love yourself, how do you expect other people to love you?

I love this message v much, i think it reflects v much on what things in bgr realli is... as for me, i'm blessed... i've everything that i can ever ask for... a feeling that i have nv felt b4 in my life..

Baby, i love u!

Seoul - Incheon

2006-11-10T16:06:00.000-08:00

i'm so sorry frenz... got alittle busy with work and plenty of stuff recently... took so long to upload all these... frenz were back from other countries and i desperately need to meet up with most of them... but anyway, i shall keep that for another day, these are the poorly taken photos abroard~

just look at the photos, i think its all self-explanatory... haha... anyway, i had DUNKING DOUGHNUTS!!

Melbourne

2006-11-07T09:37:00.000-08:00

leaving for melbourne in less than 12 hours once again... quite excited to be going aussie after so long... too bad bb cant join me.. he's bz with plenty of stuff at this moment.. haven seen him for several days alreadi... sob sob..

need to leave my hse slight b4 6pm... n i have even pack my bag properly yet!! n i still need to prepare for some stuff...

if u r still thinking of the korea photos, pls wait till i return... Fri night...

This week is SUPER BUSY!!!

Korea (I)

2006-11-06T20:21:00.000-08:00

just came back from korea... i cant believe it... the flight was so good but the place is BORING!!! absolutely boring... with boring food and n boring ppl... they DUN understand simple english!! omg... i wanted to ask the way across the street and that policeman didnt know how to reply me?!! the shopping is terrible too... the things are so expensive... i cant understand their fashion and i dun see why i shld be paying >$60 for a pair or earrings and a necklace which has a crystal missing and the lady doesnt even process what i'm saying at all.... but fortunately i saved money this way... yeah!!

pictures shall be uploaded soon~

on my way~

2006-11-03T09:59:00.000-08:00

leaving for seoul in less than 12 hours... feel alittle queasy in my stomach now... hmm... dun realli know what to expect but just expect the unexpected den... will miss u-know-who -- bb! n of coz my family.. but wil be back on mon!

annoying bitch!

2006-11-01T20:40:00.000-08:00

what's ya prob? i cant stand bitches... for a little item u can get so loud, vocal and annoyed?! its not even ya prob and i dun care what characters u like on it either! i dun care if u can afford gucci or some 'choing' pasar malam stuff on it... just dun annoy me with ya comments n whatever that happens to me is none of ya business... honestly i just hope that u stay out of my sight and keep ya loud voice out of my eyes... i dun care if u r prettier coz once again its none of my business... n realli i'm not jealous of it. even if i'm not as pretty i know bb doesnt mind! hehe... n i'm confident that my character will win over u, coz u have got a BIG attitude problem.. NO RESPECT for ppl who have more experience den u (way more more experience!) if u can control ya temper i suggest u reconsider what u r doing.. ya outburst of comments its disgusting n totally unnecessary.. whatever it is, we wun see eye-to-eye, just not see each other den...

busy with stuff~

2006-10-31T20:20:00.000-08:00

bz, bz n bz... if i haven been updating often, it means that i'm realli bz...

went for 'halloween' last sat... nothing special... coz 1stly i didnt wan to go club at all... i was only interested to go for drinks but i DIDNT wan to club... i seriously didnt know why i went... went butter factory (ATTN: jervis chia. its BUTTER factory and NOT CHOCOLATE factory! get them right 1st!) i tot the music was quite nice initially... but after a while it wasnt so fun... perhaps the ppl at the club wasnt realli that 'eye-candy', totally not hot n i wasnt dressed for the occasion... super irritating... what a disgrace to appear there... forgetable experience except for meeting an 'iMAC'... can u imagine a man removing the insides of an imac and place it over his head... and on top of that painted his face so scary den lit the insides?!i almost freaked out when he turned around!! his face is SCARY!!

anyway... been trying to fix my handbook and organise my luggage... quite nervous (coz i dun wanna forget things) i'm probably more nervous abt meeting my colleagues than meeting my pax... haha...

inflammation~

2006-10-27T21:35:00.000-07:00

i hate throat inflammations... somehow i'm so prone to that... imagine i used to have 2 inflammations within a week...

once again, i'm having a throat inflammation, n i dun have much voice left... i cant speak out loud n i hat that!! no phone conversations, no long face-to-face conversation!

kinda pissed by the virus...

Bb~

2006-10-23T19:25:00.000-07:00

john mentioned that i appear happy during our msn conversation yest... it made me realise something.. hmmm.... is it realli that obvious? ya, i do feel happy and i think its realli good enough for me.. there's realli nothing more that i can ask for now...

bb played a big part in my life.. nothing i say or do can express the joy in me, he has given so much so much... the amount of care n concern is something that i can nv win n something that i have nv experienced b4, n yet i get ample amt of space to breathe... nv have i feel so blessed as a human being, with all the showers of love from him...

days became months, months became years... i tot i would have to feel insecure being tog with him, but i was so wrong... i nv have this kinda feeling for all the time we had spent tog... nv once had i need to doubt him..

i luv u, baby.. i realli do...

Lilian's 21st

2006-10-22T19:59:00.000-07:00

It was lil's 21st birthday, how can i give it a miss?! it was a great hang-out with batch 885... went to this place "one-night stand" (sounds v suggestive, but its realli nothing like that) the pub at clarke quay... too bad it was so warm or i shld say hoT!! think i almost died from the heat... but still it was a great nights' out... super nice bamd -6 in the city- will be back there soon... looking all forward... these are the only photos i had.. the rest of the images are all in my mind...

b4 dinner arrived.. all the 'love-to-take-picture' ppl, including myself

sitting alfresco waiting for dinner..

bb, need i say more...

view from the 'top' (i'n not super tall so dun expect it too high k?!

all trying to squeeze in... super happy!

that's the birthday getting her tequila from 'ons'!

haha, kiss from the birthday girl! hmm... some1 else got it too! n boy what a lucky person...

me and lydia... all so 'high' with dancing... super hot...

this is the last one b4 being knocked out...

tots of complain

2006-10-18T21:40:00.000-07:00

took the test today... think i did like shit... i was super nervous when it came to the commands... super gan chiong... but when it was my turn i got the 'crash landing' i was like "what? i studied so hard to take the simplest one?" but boy, i was still relieved... at least i got them out correctly, just that it was not loud loud but at least i got the sequence right (i think) that's the good thing when u r the first or the last to be tested... u tend to get the easier one... coz the trainer is so sick of listening to the 'perfect' answer that they get so bored... but in simple, i think i got majority of the test stuff over, except for another command thing tml... lets leave that for tml's worry.... shall relax and sleep well tonight...

leaving for incheon on 4 nov, dunno what its gotta be like... would i like it or would i not? i hope that everything would run smoothly... suddenly it feels as though all the service tips that i learnt is long long gone... i even forgot how it is to make a bloody mary... omg... its kinda cold over there, pray that my new roxy would do it job... no1 in the right sense of mind would wanna suffer from things like hypothermia... i dunno what else can i eat besides ginseng chicken, please prove me wrong.. i dun wan kim chi either...

somehow there's plenty of stuff that i cannot understand, the relationship btw 2 human beings... there are some who can mix v well, n on the other hand there are those who can nv talk nicely to each other... i dun believe in trying to much in these kinda things... coz most of the time it backfires... u can say that women are petty, i seriously wun deny... there are certain things that i can nv erase from my mind... be it an innocent gesture... once i cant stnad it, the image is totally embedded in my mind... i'm so sorry that i have to do this, but it just disgusting attitude to me... i can accept that ppl cant stand certain things, but displaying attitude is definitely a no-no...

i miss the hair that was kempt, easy to manage... right now after all the bunning, hairspray and all the nonsense, my hair is totally out of control... omg... super dry, super out of shape and super untidy.... sianz... super sianz... need to go for treatment... but the stupid thing is that i always talk n dun do it... push me, push me to do it...

my mistake

2006-10-17T21:50:00.000-07:00

bb's unhappy... sob sob... all bcoz of a silly little thing...
nvm... shall humour him tml...

another saturday gone

2006-10-15T08:20:00.000-07:00

got some cuts and bruises from 'sliding' too much... not going to complain coz that's part of training... just pray that they heal fast and not leave a scar... starting to get paranoid abt alot of things... feeling all zonked out with all the jumpings and n of late, my memory is getting worse... probably just feeling lazy...

went harry's last night... met a few of my pri sch mates... wasnt as packed as i tot it would b... probably the ppl are watching soccer either at home or in the coffee shops... didnt do much.. just chill... it was kinda hazy last night... i think even cigarette smoke smells better and dun cause so much of eye redness... n it was bcoz of the haze, bb didnt feel too well... wasnt in the best mood... dunno what's he is irritated abt, perhaps its bcoz of fri...

sorry, baby..

more to come

2006-10-12T23:10:00.000-07:00

haven been up here lately... so 'lag' in the updating...

started the safety training on tues... able to let go of the makeup and do colours that i like... hmmm... yellow and pink is GREAT!! i still remb i did it for my 1st interview... got the inspiration of an x-colleague who got the original colours from dior... realli pretty colours but i cant get them anymore... fortunately i got something similiar from h&m... warm colours but nice cool effect... tried them on lydia on wed... got great feed-backs... hehe....

been having dinner with bb for the past 6 days except sat.. up to my throat every night... omg.. i can hear the fats mocking at the fact that the are staying in my body... they seem to scream as if they were here to stay for a long long time... oh no!!!

having more tests next week... there's some swimming stuff also... cant wait to enter the water... hope to have fun but not too tiring... coz there's so much that i need to complete

the good news is.... next month, i'm going to incheon (korea), melbourne and brisbane... hope everything goes smoothly... dun get the silent treatment...

going to bed alreadi... been for the slide for 3 days... my bum is burning from it and my legs are sorta aching... so much for trying to be fit and healthy...

visiting

2006-10-04T21:11:00.000-07:00

going to the airport tml... i wish i was going to send some1 off but its not that!! gotta do some visit tml and i need to be there by 8am?! omg... so early... ignore my naggings and complaints coz i'm always full of all that shit... i enjoy sleeping as a hobby v much now... and probably for the next 6 months...

recurring pain

2006-10-03T20:43:00.000-07:00

the pain in the left of my chest wouldnt go away... it coming back so bad that i think i wanna faint... every breath that i take is taking me more n more effort... the urge to cough and the itch in my throat is scary... i dunno what seems to be the prob but i realli cant stand it anymore.. dun realli have time to go to the doctor either... i cant stand having to wait in the queue... its wasting too much of time... i'm waiting to see how it is tml..

down with a bug~

2006-09-30T19:43:00.000-07:00

BLOCKED NOSE!!!

super annoying... i cant stand it.... i feel so sleepy all the time and now it's SATURDAY!!! omg... i cant imagine how i'm to go out later... i didnt take any medication and i wanna slp alreadi.. i cant imagine if i took the medication, i'll probably fall aslp in the car even b4 i alight!!!

i wanna go relax tonight! so damn tired and i had to fall sick... but i think its all the result of my own-doing... so there goes my karma again... yes, i do curse esp at the idiotic jerk but i dun care... its worth the while regardless.. there's so much that i can go on n on for days n i wun b able to finish... i shall drop that for today coz i'm too tired to think abt that now...

think i need to catch up on slp over the weekend... will update tml wherever i'm going tonight.. tata...

so much going on

2006-09-28T20:25:00.000-07:00

body system down for the past 2 days... slept for less than 2 hours the night b4, only wake up to have a my mouth couldnt realli open wide, throat feeling sore, neck having a stiff ache, stomach having a pain... how much better can it get?! i couldnt swallow much water, not to mention solid food.... had all sorts of pain everywhere... imagine i only had 60% of a popia, a slice of chocolate biscuit and a small corner of so 'mi chang kueh' until abt 7 plus... n for dinner i had a little bit of fried bee hoon for dinner...

and den by 2045hr, i was knocked out... i fell aslp with my mum in my room watching tv... the next moment i knew, it was 0440hr (28/09) n again within 10 sec, my eyes were closed and met alice in wonderland once again... i must thank every1 in my batch who were so concerned, seeing my having so much pain since yesterday... realli appreciated those who msg-ed and every1 who came up whether offering to carry my bag or just simply asking me how i was..

my goodness... more than 9 hours of slp n i still couldnt wake up... still have a bad ache in my neck... mayb i shld go for a massage asap... probably some weekday next week... dun have time this week... exams in on sat (thanks bestie for your wishes!! she's leaving on sat n i dun think i can send her :( )

let's see how it goes...

pain~

2006-09-26T14:00:00.000-07:00

feeling super grouchy today...

i'm trying to survive thru this pain... its been around since this morning... the ache in the left side close to where my heart is... its super painful... so feel like wanna die from it... previously it was on the right, now it has shifted... cant realli raise my left arm above my head... feel as if i m a person with limbs... dunno what's the problem...
it's throbbing...

Saturday

2006-09-23T11:00:00.000-07:00

i'm sure bestie would be v upset with me for this.... coz i didnt appear for her chalet... she's so gotta kill me... and its the second time that i didnt inform her properly... the thing is i've already planned for velvet a week ago... den few days later bestie asked if i could go to her chalet... i seriously wanted to go after training on sat coz its not too far away... but... it was late and i need to go home and get some stuff settled b4 meeting my frenz... n bcoz i've already arranged for a fren to pick me up from my place and i cant possibly request to be picked up from changi coz we both stay in the west...

but realli, i'm so so sorry for not going... i realli pray that she's not bad coz she didnt reply my msg last night... probably she might stranggle me...

putting that aside, last night was good... i totally couldnt understand why some1 would say its not fun?! had some even b4 i stepped into the car... somehow for dunno what reason every1 i met yest was telling me that i had too much... just bcoz they smelled alcohol on me even at 10.30... perhaps my liver is slow just like my hair follicles... duh!

anyway... b4 i got off the car, i so happened to see the rest of the gang smoking outside, i was like "omg, those babes are so gorgeous with their hair let down..." shit, i'm so gotta be last (honestly, i dun care either) seriously they are drop dead gorgeous!! hot babes...

300th entry!!!

2006-09-20T15:00:00.000-07:00

This is the 300th entry... n boy, i'm amazed!!

There's so much to cover and yet everytime i dun get enough time to put it all down...
i've got a shock today, not from the visit to the nursing home but from the call that i've received... what an idiot... disturbing me while i was on the highway... i could almost have slipped off the seat... the person on the other lind got the hell of scolding from me... for all the shit, i still think u deserve shit... for all that u have done... i'm waiting to see what u r going to do, prove me wrong and not yourself... coz bad karma comes in tonnes for u...

having test next week alreadi... and i haven realli studied for it... quite worried abt it seriously.. so long since i've sat down and concentrate so hard on a pc of white paper... need plenty of tips and i need plenty of bird's nest (i dun wan essence of chicken coz i dun drink that!) but some of mum's chicken soup would b good... hehe... and if i can expand the menu, i would like some oysters too, but if the budget dun allow sashimi would be nice... lotsa wasabe pls!!

p/s time has been changed to coincide with the entry! heh!

FoReVer~

2006-09-19T20:30:00.000-07:00

i feel so blessed.. went out with bb on sun... had to get some powder puffs and pants so asked him to accompany me... i wanted to eat crystal jade so much at the same time... i love having him around coz he will nv grumble that i'm fat even if i'm the size of doraemon... but i know i will nv stand myself being lidat...

i didnt have much money since i went for training, so he always make sure that i have enough with me... bring me out for dinner whenever he can... (coz being men, he likes 'bak bak')

i had a GREAT surprise...
we were walking around taka, n happened to see a credit card booth... and den bb walked str up to the 'salesman' and asked for a sub card for me!! i realli didnt expect that... bcoz we always talk abt it n i always treated it as a joke...

i simply feel so blessed to be with him...
some1 who is so sweet, thought abt the possibility that i might need a card when i'm overseas...
thought of what kinda '1st-aid' kit that i might need...
some1 who can accept me liking mickey mouse characters..
what i would look presentable in...

there's so much, so much that i luv abt him...
his thoughtful-ness
his ability to predict me or my actions
etc, etc, etc...

there's nothing more than i can say

Baby,
i love u!

mOrE ThOuGhtS``

2006-09-17T10:30:00.000-07:00

went winebar for a little while last night... its quite annoying to know that the ppl there offer u a RESERVED seat and inform u that u need to give up the seat when the reservation comes in... wth... why bother to offer a RESERVED seat den... so annoying... nvm that...

recently there's this issue abt being sad..

den what is it to
party too hard?
drink over ya usual limit?
staying out later den normal?
avoiding that topic totally?
jumping at things that u nv tot u will?
laughing just a bit more?

probably its just an attempt to hide for the moment... enjoy it while it lasts... i cannot imagine what its going to be like at times.. the moment of truth might be out anytime, i just dun wanna know.. live for the moment...

i'm happy just to know that bb loves me!

ThOuGhtS``

2006-09-12T19:32:00.000-07:00

been so so busy training... and the fatigue that sets in by 8.30pm... feels that i cant leave my couch by 9.30pm... and by 10.30 i would be knocked out... wanted to watch grey's anatomy so much last night, but by 9.45 i was alreadi in bed meeting alice-in-wonderland... my goodness... so much for being an elderly with the routine of having go to bed early and waking up early...

no more late nights for me for the time being.. need plenty of rest to prevent dark rings... not too much drinks or my eyes will puff up... need alot of beauty essentials otherwise will have plenty of wrinkles after removing make-up...

everyone must be thinking "if u wanted this job initially u would have thought abt the thick make-up and hairstyle and everything..." but honestly, i nv knew it was so thick, the bun has to be so hard.. and definitely nv knew that u had to greet every1 at any time of the day... the only thing that i knew was probably the red lip-stick and bright red nail polish... at that point i realli didnt mind the red nail polish coz i luv my mani and pedis...

but i was so wrong when i met one of my frenz recently... i felt kinda 'discounted' coz there was mention of the super red nail polish and its was the v typical 'stewardess look'... i so badly wanted to say, THAT's the look that i shld have... if u think that its an embarrassment to be hanging out with a stewardess-to-be den i'm sorry... coz i'm junior and not like that some1 u know, who doesnt use such bright nail polish... but DUN belittle me! i'm sure i can win her and make u take your words back... we can be good frenz but dont doubt the ability of making me ignore u... we can 'insult' each other and make fun, but i cannot stand it when i meant business and the fact that u upset me.. its alreadi bad if u dun realise it and i'm upset that u dun even care the least whereby normal frenz shld... so be it then...

putting that aside, let me revert the 'energy' to being able to keep myself awake for the night.. bb's going home tonight... so i'm gotta be a bit bored... no1 to accompany me :( i miss seeing him (though i saw him the day b4)

meanwhile can only wait for a few more days... wait for him to return and make him bring accompany me... hehe...

for my beautiful dream

2006-09-05T20:33:00.000-07:00

there seems to be something wrong with blogger... or its just my computer... i CANT upload my photos... its so sickening...

1st, it was the hardisk crashing... causing me to temporarily lose some photos and the video clip of the fireworks that i've taken last month @ marina sq.. i cant upload the photos i took with bb @ sentosa... i cant load the pictures that we took with fen at raku! so many i cants... oh pls, some1 teach me how to link both the hard drive tog den i can retrieve whatever i've left in there...

been taught all the appropriate makeup today... i know its super thick, but that's the way it is... and think abt it, if the rest of my seniors can do it, why cant i?? if they can get up early to do, i think i can... (so no more 'nightlife' for me... sob sob...) cannot choing or go pub on weekdays anymore... (not that i always go) i like the feeling whereby i can slp at anytime late and wun not be bothered by fatigue the morning after.. i love the sensation at night when either alone or with your beloved ones, sitting there thinking of nice thoughts or just sharing your thoughts for what has happened recently, updating each other abt your life... meanwhile, all these having some wine or chilled beers or simply some iced-cold martini... ooooooooo... enjoy life lei... i simply adore the idea of being able to sit there and relax totally... chill...

i'm waiting for the day whereby my house will have a wide window for us to sit around... allow us to sit there and see the sunset, enjoying our drinks and not think abt anything else except beautiful thoughts..

baby, i luv u...

aNsWerS??

2006-09-03T09:40:00.000-07:00

there's plenty of things are not explained... sometimes when u r lucky u get an answer, when u r powerful u might be able to force an answer out, but when it's not meant to be u would nv get an answer no matter how hard you try...

for myself, i've tried searching for answers all my life..
i search for answers to whereby why does this person have to treat me lidat? (be it nice or vice versa) why did things have to turn out this way? (be it beautiful or ugly) there's always plenty of question marks in my head.. i'm not so lucky, normally i dun realli get an ans.. i choose to whip something up, at other times i simply assumed that i created too much bad karma in the past by ignoring ppl that i shldnt have and ill-treating them i guess..

i realised that i luv putting plenty of 'full-stops' at the end of my sentences.... there's a reason for this.. i'm dragging this entire sentence.. it's not as simple as 'full-stop' and its the end of the sentence.. i'm lingering on as if i was clinging onto it.... i dun wan it to end abruptly...

its true that somethings i whip up an answer but half the time i'm so not convinced by myself and when i need the assurance that things are going to turn out fine, i dun see it... i'm such a lousy actress, i simply cant fake it... there's so many things going thru my head for the past 2 weeks and i simply cant put a stop to any of it... i cant pretend as if nothing has happened, coz in my heart its as in something has changed... why do u have to snap at me at the little things that i tot was not at all significant... i regretted dinner so much bcoz of that stretch of road.. i hated dinner bcoz u seem as if u didnt wanna listen to my stories, stories that i'm sure u would wanna listen if it was me telling u 6 months ago... baby have u changed? sometimes i just dont get it... i dunno how to hide this issue that has gotten to my heart... baby, why dun u wanna talk abt it anymore? and i hated dinner bcoz u didnt even bear to hold my hand... m i such an embarrasment? or it is simply bcoz it might be easier to let go later? or u dun even need to let go since u haven held it? perhaps u must be thinking that i'm spouting nonsense and acting as if i had the worst pms that any female could possibly experience?? i ask myself what have i done to feel like that? not having enough concern for u?? sometimes i realli dun understand...

u dun like me planning so far ahead so u couldnt give me an answer.. right now, i'm searching for an answer which i think i might have to whip up again... u dun like me pestering u abt certain things and why cant u simply tell me the 1st time it happened?

i always tot that i've gone past the stage whereby 'us' was not existant in your circle of friends.. but apparently it was not.. the 'us' that i tot is also not true under other circumstances.... in these circumstances when i should have kept my mouth shut... simply bcoz i was almost non-existant.. u can say that i'm pms-ing again, but to me, it matters... there's a saying whereby, pisceans are mysterious creatures, i cant agree more..

baby, tell me it isnt real.. tell me that i've been hallucinating abt all these events, tell me that all these dun not exist at all...

tears arent beautiful

2006-09-01T23:04:00.000-07:00

i dunno if its good or bad... but once again, i can feel as if my tears were to flow... is it the 2nd or 3rd time? or is it the umpteen-th time? i realli cant remember...

it wasnt meant to be a challenge... it wasnt meant to be something bad... at a certain point i kinda cant get it... and the sadest thing is that u dun wanna explain it.. what can i do if the communication is only one way?

i'm holding back my tears...
u know my weakness... and i dun wan it to be pity or just to make me stop... i need you to understand and most imptly i wan to go thru this with u... but do u understand?

1st day..

2006-08-30T21:15:00.000-07:00

1st day of training... quite tiring... getting up early is one thing, having to endure the afternoon hours is another story... i know i'm supposed to be enjoying the entire pricess while i'm at it... but i realli cant wait for the 1st 2 months to be over so i can get on my 1st flight... reallii realli cant wait for that day to come..

pray that i dun fall aslp in class tml or in the days to come...

2 more days!

2006-08-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

its the last 2nd day of work... i cant wait for it to be over... the fact that the kinda shit i'm getting with my superior to be not-at-all-understanding, i cannot imgaine who can take this kinda shit.... i cant wait for the clock to strike 1930... that's time to knock off and its happy hour time (not that i'm going for drinks)

its last monday that i'm gotta work at that place... v happy to get away from it.... gotta pay my way thru all these nonsense.. but its all been decided.. dun think anything else can get in the way anymore.. almost argued with bb last night regarding the contract issue... i hated all the shit that i got myself into and i simply needed to whine abt it.. he didnt realli understood why i was acting this way but i guess we got over it... its just abt money at the end of the day, but mayb i'm just too stubborn, i wanted to win and it was my fault in a way..

gotta be quite penniless for the next few months, gotta welcome anybody's treat for meals.. haha... its gotta be another kinda lifestyle.. wake up early, get my butt off the bed, and diving into the mad traffic rush... but still i hope that everything will go smoothly.. i need to know that i made the correct decision.. i know this is a choice that i made since i went last month... i can only be thankful for the fact that i'm super lucky to be chosen and i'm gotta try...

some good news for myself.. the last 2 days of work, i will be able to be v peaceful, no moody face to look at.. yippie..

a pc of shit

2006-08-26T18:33:00.000-07:00

there's a type of guy that i simply cannot stand forever...

guys who borrow money from u n simply refuse to acknowledge the fact that they need to return it to u... in specifically joshua the coward!! yest happen to see that jerk at heeren... gave him a chance to acknowledge my presence not once but thrice! and he simply chose not to do it! WTF!! (btw, j shall stand for JERK!!) he simply being a coward and everything bad carried a face that was scared of me... and boy, he SHOULD be scared.. simply bcoz i might just slap him across the cheek! being not only an idiot but also a completely disgusting chap... simply digusting.. whoever that gal who was with him was so so silly... pity that gal who had to endure his 'antics' and 'charms' coz to me, he's simply not charming anymore.. how can a jerk be nice? i must keep emphasising that i hate him!

i spared him the agony of being embarrassed n he didnt appreciate it.. so it arises to bad karma! trust me, jerk, they normally comes in kg for baddies, but for u it comes in tonnes!! millions and millions of tonnes that will overwhelm u forever... till the day whereby u vanish it still will haunt u like crazy...

n once again, Jerk, i hate u like crazy...
detest to the core...

i've gicen u too many chances and u simply didnt know how to appreciate the kindness... so dun blame me for not giving u enough 'face'.. u, yourself shall bear the consequences..

my goodness

2006-08-26T07:30:00.000-07:00

i cannot imagine how i could have forgotten to mention abt my bos... its simply irritating once again, to know that how he can make use of his manpower... manupulating his staff... i cant stand it bcoz i'm one of his 'seeds' that he can play around with.... wth... i cant stand the fact that its happening bcoz i'm taking pay from him!! arghh....

i realli cant stand my boss... he's trying to take advantage of the fact that i'm leaving and making use of all the stupid info he have to manipulate whatever's that left of me... the feeling sucks... n seriously, i think my boss shld think abt what he's doing... making this a big fuss... n fyi, i haven talked to him for weeks... he's using a middleman to talk to me... how nice can this kinda boss get?

i hope that i wun b like that when i become a boss.. i shall try my best to be understanding and accomodating to my inferiors... realli, i'm going to try... but there's just some ppl that i wouldnt hire... ppl who make use of the office stationery to do stuff that's simply too personal... like what my colleague have done... its realli unacceptable to me... even if i'm of her religion...

4 More Days!

2006-08-23T01:04:00.000-07:00

counting down to the number of days left at my current workplace...

excluding fri i have 4 days. therotically, i have another 3.5 days that's bcoz of sat's half day... hmm... cant wait for it to b over, not bcoz i can bid goodbye to optometry, but i can see something different that i haven experienced b4.. another pushing factor is simply bcoz i cant stand who i work with... i'm fine that we dun talk, dun stand in my way.. i know its not easy to work with me, but i guess i have to learn with it too.. cant b too nasty or it will come back to me one day.. had enough of all the bad karma stuff.. i kinda believe it too..

come next wed n its all going to b different. heard that its going to b abit chaotic and nevertheless stressful.. hope it wun make me lose my appettite... already having abit of stomach problems nowadays, perhaps i've been eating too much of all the cold, raw food.. (think: iced coffee, salmon sashimi, lettuce in salads) and the oily stuff (think: chicken rice, roti prata) n now i know, mixture of all these nonsense is realli junk.. pls dun envy me that i can eat all these, coz realli u will get sick of it..

cant wait to go for training now... cant wait for jan to come... but yet there's so much that i need to do these days... so many things to do and yet so little time... wonder if there's time for dinner with daddy b4 he returns to aktau.. he's been a busy man since his return.. so many things to settle... think his white hair is getting more each day..

i need to tone up alreadi... dun think any1 can stand flabby arms.. imagine if u shake hands with a stranger and your arms flab?! omg! i desperately need to tone up but i'm simply too lazy... help! bb's gotta kill me if he sees this (but thankfully he cant stand reading blogs, no matter how hard i pester him to read it)

i need some exercise to keep the fatigue away... the strain on my shoulders is back... beginning to slouch.. slouching is BAD!! v bad for your shoulders and even WORSE for your health... it makes u grouchy and it causes u to fall ill.. seriously i'm not joking... get good posture and there wun b headache and that leads you to GOOD HEALTH! trust me, try it...

My SunDay~ w/ BB

2006-08-20T23:40:00.000-07:00

quite a feww updates..

went home after the stay-over... being the first to fall alsp, i had the luxury of being left in a corner and one of the gals had to remove my glasses for me... didnt even know when ww left the hse for the 'night'.. woke up at around eleven plus and headed home to have 'brunch' b4 meeting bb...

can u imagine having to wait for the stupid bus for at least 15 mins?! its not like i'm waiting for that one single bus, i had a wide choice of 3 out of 7. that's like more than 40% chance!! n i had to wait for so damn long.. it was like super hot weather... i hate being under hot weather when i'm in jeans... it irritates me v much...

but anyway, met bb n went sentosa was supposed to join ann, but i seriously dun fancy meeting his bf (not at the moment) so instead of going km8, went to the usual palawan... my fav spot, simply bcoz its convenient for me.. bb dun fancy the beaches at sentosa... he didnt like the water around there saying that's its super oily.. i know he went bcoz of me... that's the only reason he went.. was supposed to b swimming but me being lazy, enjoy lying on the sand and have some eye-shut... knowingly fell aslp beside him. to my horror i woke up with my face flat on my beach towel and i still had my shades on!! the most annoying thing was that the left side of the plastic sunglass pressed onto my nose and there's an indentation on my already-so-flat nose! omg... n it hurts v much..

had dinner at seah im food centre only to realise that the nasi byrani's standard dropped... the chicken n mutton is not nice alreadi... but the rice is super fragrant!

Stay-over

2006-08-20T21:30:00.000-07:00

long long time since i've updated... pls dun mould yet coz i've got plenty to 'upload'...

been to one of my pri sch mates' place on sat... she's leaving for beijing on on sat... she's going for 5 months.. sob sob... gotta miss going to her place and borrow clothes for 5 whole months!! :( she's the closest to me in terms of size and distance... so its easy to grab clothes from her place like the day b4 i have an event... n vice versa... that's what frenz r for!

we went to her place for a stay-over n u realise that after so long its realli not much different... coz the friendship runs deep n its so real... dun think anything will destroy this friendship that runs for more than 10 yrs (unless its some1's gf/ bf who is a jerk n try to do something funny, but i hope that this will nv happen) i will miss those days whereby we can meet so often n do nothing by staying at each other's place.. do crappy stuff like talking so loud on the bus that ww always claim that the entire bus of ppl will clap their hands once we alight.. as teenagers we were so roundy... but we didnt do anything bad as in illegal... just had fun but teasing every1 we know..

b4 going ty's place i had this craving for salmon so i simply had to buy some at cold storage... we basically watched tv and waited for ann b4 going out for prata... i mean how much food can my stomach hold? i cant imagine...
i had katsu don for dinner at 7 plus,
salmon sashimi at 10 plus,
prata at 11plus..
omg.. my stomach...
poor thing...

CouNtinG DoWn!!

2006-08-14T09:19:00.000-07:00

I've exactly 9.5 days more left at my current company... 9 weekdays and 1 saturday..

yippie! i cant wait to go bcoz...

1. my collegaue is not exactly what i tot she is out to be... (u know those kinda ppl who only work when the superior is around) etc... i dun realli feel like elaoborating except for the fact that she wore a white skirt to work (when our dress code is BLACK), she wore slippers to work on sat (what nonsense is this?!) and when there's no customer she takes out her bible to read in the shop..

2. the lure of stc is more exciting... though there's so many many rules like u can only wear heels btw 1 to 3 inches and they must be with strap at the back or choose court shoes.. n u CANNOT wear necklace.. watches must be of either gold, silver or black... omg... think i gotta wear rolex there.. hehe... (Sponsors any1?) there's still plenty more regarding hair, earrings and etc...

there's so much that i need to change in my wardrobe too, dun think anything is wearable to stc except for my old clinic blouses... sigh.. i need a revamp of my closet!!!

sigh... gotta head to work already... :(
but its like

10 more days!!

customer service

2006-08-13T09:30:00.000-07:00

i honestly think that oub centre has a problem with their management... the staff is downright lazy and unhelpful...

-- the inferiors cannot cover the task of the superior who was on medical leave for more than 2 weeks?! i mean if u cant cover i can still understand but u cannot promise to help and not give a reply... DUN promise if u cant do it... this is stupid... i mean if u realli cannot do it, think of an alternative way... didnt ya parents teach u that?! coz we pay rent and u dunno how to do things?

-- the most ridiculous thing is that u charge so much rent and when the rent is only 1 day late u charge exhorbitant interest!! i'm fine that it makes sense if the payment is late and u charge interest but the rate is worse than a loan-shark!! omg... how can this be?

-- all land-lords are the same... when they see u earning money, they want a cut of it, so they increase your rent by 100%... ridiculous... perhaps thats another way of asking you to shift out...

-- the staff is absolutely 'sucky' and they have a serious attitude problem.. no manners when they talk to their 'customers'... (What's your problem).. i simply hate ppl without manners... i mean if i talk to you nicely, i just be courteous ya? i dun find it very difficult, at most after u hang up the phone just curse la.. (once again, what's your problem?!) asking for u to get some1 to check out what's the problem with the unlit lights on my signboard is not that difficult right?! wth... give me plenty of crap and dun wanna listen to me 1st! what did they teach u abt customer service..

disappointed me time and again... what more crap can u give me?! thankfully, i'm not the actual tenant, but it teaches me a lesson when i wanna rent a space in the mall.. and fortunately, i'm leaving oub centre for good soon...

that's a temporary goodbye to optometry and hello to super dry skin...

The Magical Word

2006-08-09T21:08:00.000-07:00

there's so much variation to this word ~ damn...

i'm quite amazed...
know i shldnt b doing this but i've been using it quite a bit recently..

1. damn = shit
2. damn it = the screw came off the frame and fell on the floor
3. damn sian = no customer in shop = no sales
4. damn tired = waiting for the last hour to pass in the shop

and something that i haven used b4...
Damnation..
saw this in one the books that i was reading previously...

alittle meaningless but i jus wanted to voice out whatever's inside me...

something more

2006-08-04T23:59:00.000-07:00

i'm so tired these days... not tired abt work but have too on after work... met with ty, ann, ww for dinner at coffee club express.. think the gals r getting hotter and hotter each day... they are slimming down to the right proportion and i realli think they are hotter den me... n ww is putting on a bit of weight, looking better den b4.. hmm... it seems that when u grow a little u become hotter?! if that is so, i wanna grow too!!

but the stupid thing is i keep losing weight now.. too much stress when i return homwe and i cant eat properly... it seems like the more i eat, the more often i need to clear my bowels.. so i presume, the more u clear your bowels the lighter u become... if this occurred 1 yr ago i will be so happy... coz at that point of my life i think i was FAT. at least too heavy for my weight..

right now... let me calculate... if i were to gain abit of weight and climb up to 48kg, assuming they would remember my height as 1.66m

BMI: weight (kg) / height x height

48 / 1.66x1.66 = 17.5XX

so that will put me in the better books and refrain from some1 bugging me to put me in some weight gain program... for the sake of my future, pls let me b abit shorter...

anyway back to the previous topic... met up with them... quite long time since we met up, decided to gather once more b4 ty leaves for beijing on 26 aug.. she's going to beijing university for 5 months... omg.. one shopping buddy lesser for the next 5 months :(... not that she has alot of time for me but she stays so close to me and its easier to borrow clothes for last minute events...

if given a chance, i would simply have eaten thai express over coffee club.. but i realli cant b bothered to argue coz im so tired... just wanna spend some time with my frenz and food is not so much of an issue coz everything procacly taste the same... (recently i just got this thing for spicy soup, but i cant have too much of the soup that they serve outside bcoz it has so much monosodiumglutamate?) it will cause plenty of hair loss and i dun wan bb to start losing hair...

i've got so much i wanna say but it will take ages to get all of this out for me...

but b4 i forget, thanks fen for getting me what i wan at la senza(UK)!! love u lots... hehe... but the love has gotta be shared with bb.. :P

Horrible Driver

2006-08-03T23:50:00.000-07:00

life cant get any shittier...

i was so happy as i managed to manuvore my car into a nice parallel parking lot somewhere at upper thomson.. and den i left to take dinner with bb... dinner was fine as i had so much to eat... happily walking back to the car n den i saw something that i nv would wanna see.. a long scratch mark of at least 15cm and there's 2 of it... initially i tot it was when i parked at oub centre and the stupid lorry must have whacked open the stupid door and cause that... but upon turning my head more to the front of the car, i saw an incredibly long black tyre mark and a HUGE patch of paint missing at the SAME side of the bumper which i fixed like LAST MONTH!!! f***! and all of this was none of my fault!! U IRRESPONSIBLE DRIVER!! banged into my car and ran away?! it must have been the stupid van driver in front trying to reverse out of the parallel lot... WTF!!! i realli hate to curse but i cant stand drivers who do that!! i mean if u did it just own up and i will forgive u rather den i get mad n u get scared etc... WTF!!

since u decided not to own up i have deicided to curse (not only u but the rest of your family too) n something will definitely go wrong with ya truck soon... Fucking lousy driver, so irresponsible..

plenty of shit

2006-07-30T16:40:00.000-07:00

sometimes i dunno if its me who did something wrong and this is the punishment.. i dun wan pity from ppl... but i seriously hate it... perhaps i've reaped too much bad karma and this is definitely worse den having 10kg of bad karma falling on u!!

i'm trying v hard to be strong with all these going on... must thank bb for being there with me.. i dunno how to go thru this shit without him.. thru-out this period if i ever raise my voice or show my discontent, i apologise for that... this is realli the worst patch in my life ever.. i dunno how to tell every1 abt this but when the time comes i think i might come up with a book for that.. all these filled with the nonsense that i'm giong thru now and let it be lessons that i'll tell my children when they grow up...

nv, nv trust strangers with your money... sometimes even your long-time frenz... coz it will cost you your everything...

i need all this shit to clear up after so much...