i need to run away

so many things have happened this entire month...

from my family to quarrels with bb..
i'm v thankful that bb helped me thru all these..
this time realli.. without him, i dunno what will become of me..
i know till now i refuse to face e truth, n i dun think i have e courage to in e near future..
i' m trying to concentrate on e good of my life.
trying to focus on things that can make me feel better now..

i dun wanna fall into depression.. i dun wanna fall into this pit that no one is able to pull me out of it..
much as i wanna to get away from all this harsh reality.. i can only run so far..
my dear frenz.. pls forgive me if i choose to be alone for a little while..
i hope u will understand that this is a difficult time for me..
nv have i felt so alone n so misunderstood..

i dun think anyone can put themselves in my shoes.. perhaps i just choose to be difficult..
let me just run away for a little while more.. give me some more time to put myself tog b4 i can face e world again..

i need to hide behind a mask n take things from another perspective 1st..
until then...
give me a little room..

i know i can do this..

if u will see this..

e feeling keeps returning..
every time i felt that it was a slap on my face..
n each time it feels harder n harder..
it hurts more n more..

i told u it doesnt hurt anymore.
i realli tot so..
but each time i hear things..
n every word felt like a thorn..

thank u for taking care of me
all this is coming to an end..
we've both got e answer..
all for e perfect ending..

new love..

new baby in e family..

this time its black with a 4-wheel drive..

luvs...


too bad i cant find e photo anywhere..
will upload it once i get it..

haha...

away from home..

been in pakistan for e past few days.. didnt do much except eat n slp n watch online shows..
boredom to e max.. haha. unlike in sin there's so much more to do.. but fortunately this hotel is comfy.. except for e food.. dun think i'm used to it..

cant wait to get back home.. can see bb rather than e 4 walls here..

Is it me?

somehow again, i feel that things have changed.. i'm starting to feel e distance btw us. its as if u r pulling away from me.. many many hidden secrets that i cannot know of.. or have u changed? i dunno.. i've asked what i shld ask but i dun seem to get an ans.. sigh..

u just pray that its me that thinking too much..

爱多少早知道

One of my fav songs..


爱多少早知道

我的头发已全部剪掉　
你指定的发型我现在不想要　
我再也不会抱着你聊　
聊那些以前以为有的未来　
对你说的话　
现在想起来多可笑　
请你别太计较


早知道我会爱得受不了　
就该随身带着一把剪刀　
把所有我不爱的画面都去掉　
是否我会更好

早知道认识你像玩高空弹跳　
拉扯你我爱的距离忽大忽小　
也许认识我的时候你就知道　
你对我的爱有多少

It's been long..

been feeling quite sick for e past few days.. must b my gastric flu acting up again.. shld have seen e doctor just now.. said this so many times already.. but still..

dun feel at all gd today.. thank god i've got e gals to meet for lunch.. shldnt have eaten curry since i'm not well.. but wth.. dunno what's wrong with baby.. so abrupt n impatient recently... so many things that i cant do for him n i dunno how to help him...

sometimes i think its so difficult.. so difficult to live with someone n get accustomed to his living habits n requests n everything.. think he's more n more like his dad. i dunno what to do..

n e ans is not that simple..

My gfs

One of the little recent gatherings

Me, Lil and Eil

Arh... Finally Sandy is on leave and back to Sin for her 3 weeks holiday.. its been ages since i've seen her... N everyone decided to go sing k.. been ages since i've went k-ing..

Me. Eil. Lil. Sandy. Ryan

Photo taken in btw songs..

Long time since e 5 of us met up... i missed those days...

Those days whereby we meet everyday till we can get sick of it...

Me.Eil. Lil. Sandy

As usual 4 of us cam-whoring without Ryan. hah...

Those were e days.. can u imagine most of my poly photos were of 4 or 5 ppl.. think my mum almost tot there were only 5 of us in e entire class!!

So belated Birthday..

Actually these photos r realli old... Just wanted to post them up...





Thanks for all e effort to put this little impromptu party.. appreciate it..





Birthday boy n gal in RED!!!


My colleague who celebrated his birthday 3 days b4 mine!
N e cake was bought by him!! So sweet...